quarta-feira, 2 de fevereiro de 2011

Thoughts

I was "cleaning" my PC and found this... a resume of my worries to ask the doctor when still didn't had the final diagnose for the left eye...
Just to share...

"How was on Saturday?

Did you speak you Mr Ezra?

What can he find in theater that can make him not to operate?

What do you think? I remember, He told me there was a very big probability of him not doing anything? But, I keep thinking why? Why not if we have nothing to lose?

I don’t want to keep operating for nothing. Anesthesia, pain. I really know that we have to know when to stop. I’m saying that to myself, and try to prepare for that. But I feel that is all or nothing. That may be is not the right moment.

I really don’t feel read to stop now. Am I wrong? What Am I missing? What can he find, that is worst then what we know now? And if he thinks we shouldn't operate? Can I phone you? He seems fantastic, and very trustful. But to decide that, in that moment, without you, that has been with us since the beginning is going to be difficult.

And if the eye is lost, can we just leave it? Not do anything? Will just go smaller and smaller? If that’s the case, in the future I’ll have to thing is aesthetics. Something that now is not important because we are looking for function no matter what the eye looks like. But that’s different.

And the cornea will get clouded. He told me that it happens always. But then he said it could be a month or a year, that she could always have another transplant. (Do you agree? If yes, when? When can she have another)So can the cornea get less clouded with time? And if it gets clouded, how much clouded? Clouded that allows light to go into the eye? If the eye gives something can the cornea allow it to go into the eye?

I’m confused"